[06 Mar 2005|10:45pm] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | everlong ♥ ] okay. so.. i've decided to actually write in this again. it's been a while hasn't it? i've been thinking a lot lately about college. i've realized that i have been slacking for way too long. don't get me wrong my grades are decent and they aren't necessarily anything to be ashamed of, i just feel that i haven't been working to my potential. it's been more about the social life than anything else- which is also important. sure, it's fun right now, but when i start applying to colleges and i realize that i could have done SO much better i'll surely regret it. i can't say that i even know where exactly i want to go! i was thinking about running in college and was hoping for a scholarship but running is also another thing i've put aside lately. don't get me wrong... i run. and i'm good. but is good enough? i just feel as though i should be doing so much more right now but i just need that extra push. anyway, enough complaining. tomorrow is 6 months with my boyfriend anthony ♥ 6 months & still going strong. he's amazing and we're a good match. i couldn't ask for more! friday night i hung out with mike & the crew.. went to applebees (after 10 of course) which was cool. the usual. last night i went to see a play "pippin" that my friend was in! met up with the ptdc fam (the best friends anyone could ever ask for.) it was so much fun, i've missed them. jelani was amazing in the play and completely stole the show. he is talented beyond belief. joey & jay also came (the bro suprised me by bringing me and coming home from college) aww... no matter how much we fight i'll admit he keeps me sane (when he isn't driving me INsane.) we have our little talks. we went to cafe eclectic after the show but it was madd crowded so we just went to DD's for coffee & went home. i know i say this all of the time but I HAVE TRULY AMAZING FRIENDS. riley & kelly i love you two to death! and can't forget everyone else. HSPA's tomorrow. math section. have i prepared? no. nice one jack. SAT's on saturday. prepared? no. WHERE THE HELL is that PERSONAL DRIVE! on the + side.. i'm babysitting saturday night which means mula. (but then again i can't go out) oh well, can't always win. :shrugs: later guys ♥ 1 ♥ kiss mee.

[27 Nov 2004|12:54am] [ mood | excited ] [ music | livin' on a prayer- bon jovi ] i felt the need to update since i never do.. this thanksgiving was definitely a great one. i've realized lately just how lucky i really am. i mean, i have the greatest friends in the world (prove me wrong.. i dare ya) who are just SO much fun. i have such a close relationship with most of them & it's just awesome to always have someone to talk to when you need them the most. not to mention my boyfriend who's simply amazing. we're just perfect together.. no other way to explain it. we're so alike in many ways. my grades have improved tremendously since last year and i don't think i've ever been so content in my life. enough with this mushy stuff, tonight i hung out with anthony. leanne surprised me by jumping on my bed! missed my lee-lee! awesome night. tomorrow i go out to dinner with the ptdc friends. (far overdue... miss my college friends!) then party after. sweet. and as for next weekend... fucking MIAMI with the girls... jealous yet? party hard, baby. gonna be amazing. can't wait! on a sad note, i'm missing my varsity dinner to go.. but it's miami! and this isn't my 1st varsity dinner, and there's more to come. so live it up! happy belated bday to MICHELLE MATIAS! 2 ♥ kiss mee.

[14 Oct 2004|06:30pm] [ mood | energetic ] [ music | konstantine - something corporate ] so, since i'm in a super-duper good mood i figured i'd actually update! today: today school was actually pretty good! (how you ask?) i don't actually know... but it was! RACE after school against west essex. kicked some butt. saw my steve whom i've missed a ton since work is over. love you! came in 1st pl. overall, with a personal best time. before the race the girls had to go to the bathroom & there was none in the park, so we ran to my gma's house (lol, funniest time) i love my ita's! what am i gonna do when xc ends? :shrugs: matt asked me to marry him during the race (of course i said yes, well duh) i ran with the boys since my maria wasn't there. steve cheered for me even though i'm not on his team lol (as he ran) awuh. today is SUNIL's birthday! my boy, my bitesized amigo forever <3 known him since we were itty bitty ace of base lovers. happy birthday, dear! so lately i've been extremely busy with school, etc. yesterday was particularly hectic. psat's are on saturday which i'll fail because i'm a horrible test taker.. but i'm hoping for the best :crosses fingers: i miss anthony <3 i miss sunil & my college friends. i miss steve & steph and my ptdc crew. where did everyone go? i love my friends so yeah, things are good... i'm not your star... 4 ♥ kiss mee.

partayy [26 Sep 2004|06:48pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | can you keep up 'baby boy' lemme lose my breath ;] ] this weekend was pretty sweet. saturday i went to the mall with alex & that night went to the italian festival with the girls! we probably had more fun at my house getting ready and on the way there then we did at the actual place but wudevah. "my goodies", "you grabbed my ass- do it again!" yeah, we're getting hollered at! "he hollered!" met up with ang and dan. saw my joey- awwee <3 just walked around & socialized then it got a little boring so we got food & ventured off. got a call from stephie & the ptdc girls who i was sopposed to be with- (love you guys!) today i went to the mall again (how very sad) got (wait for it...) MORE clothes! & now i'm about to start my lab report for chemistry. yay for that. xc meet on tuesday, wish me luck! jackie has the best friends... ever ♥ kiss mee.

[25 Sep 2004|02:25pm] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | my goodies ] reasons why jackie absolutely loves her ptdc girls: ♥ sleepovers & treadmills ♥ mud-sliding & shaving cream ♥ tears & laughs (never-ending) ♥ pieces of me ♥ parties (we keep them going constantly) ♥ trampolines (especially with danny) ♥ swimming in the lake ♥ boy talks (oh how many of those..) jeez, why does jackie NOT love her ptdc girls? :shrugs: anyways, last night i saw my anthony! it was a very busy week for me with the pep rally (yeah, i spoke in front of tons of people-go me!) and everything going on, so i was excited. now he's on his retreat for school till' monday. aww, ♥ my boy. today i'm mallin' it with my alex then going to the italian festival tonight with danni and a whole bunch of people & meeting up with my little ang whom i haven't seen in way too long. i was sopposed to go chill at riley's house with the girlie's since steph is home from syracuse but my parent's went down the shore & i have no way of transportation lols. so this was the next best thing i guess. OW! great mood. i've decided that this journal is pretty much pointless now, but i still write in it so i remember the important shit. wudevah! kiss mee.

at least he tries, girl.. (haha) [19 Sep 2004|10:45pm] [ mood | content ] ok, so maybe i was wrong about school. it's actually been going very well (so far...) anyway, since i haven't updated lately here's a quick recap: cross country is good so far. i'm captain this year- we beat teaneck in our first race. i placed 1st for belleville girls & 6th or 7th (i think) out of everyone which is cool. next race is tuesday, wish me luck! anthony & i are going out now (9/7/04)and he's amazing. it works out well between us. i didn't want a boyfriend right away being this is junior year and with being xc capt & sec. of student gov. and overloaded with homework all the time it's way too much. buutt.. with him i'm not suffocated & we both have our own things going on so it's great! we have alot in common. lately- chilled with laur & bry (zombie's!) lol. we just had 15 kids. was rebellious & snuck out at like 3 am when laur slept over to chill with anthony lol. adorable.♥♥ listened to 'the cd' lol i'm addicted! ventured off to taco bell with laura & almost died (HA!) joey switched dorms already... (poor roosevelt ;) hehe) went out to eat with anthony.. walked around nutley etc. etc. life is good.♥ kiss mee.

party's over... or not! [06 Sep 2004|09:11pm] [ mood | depressed ] so these past few days have been extremely fun & it's too bad it has to end but at least it ended on a good note- right? (other day) hung out with PTDC people! went to eclectic. max was hungover & was hit on by a guy. i miss you guys <3 thurs- track prac. (bleh), commons with anthony & laura. met danny from aspen it is, not knowing who he was. awesome night! & laura slept over because she's that cool. friday- practice of course. went to brookdale pk. didn't run because i was sick. laura came over again because she lives at my house- anthony came over. =] went down the shore that night, went to the diner with the parents. brandon called to chill but that didn't end up happening because he's a badboy. sat- went out on jamies boat with kelsey & the crew. went swimming & to the beach. awesome day "look at my hardcore surfboard", "scratch & sniff", the old man with the huge hole in his pants- ass all out, greg, "i just kicked that waves ass". awesome waves for surfing- kel & i went running on the beach. went out to eat at the captains inn. had the most filling dinner i've ever had in... my life! so good. went to pick up flowers for our hair for the party on sunday & rocked out in jamie's cadi ;] rented "confessions of a teenage drama queen" because well- because. sunday- fishing contest! woke up extremely early for the annual fishing tourney of the marina. our team won (of course) because we're amazing. not that i can fish.. but they can. (the boys) so it's good. me & jamie had two wonderful naps on that trip lol. boat-leakage nap routine lol! caught a few fish, one huge one. got back & got dressed for the party. "reel nauti" store our big fish (we're so competitive lol!) but we still won! the rest of the night was really fun. hung out with ROB, corey, dennis, dylan, john, kelly, ashley & the rest in which i haven't seen in a while. had our usual crowded golf-cart rides (with like 10 people on at a time), "polish liquor" lol!, drank & chilled at dennis' house. so much fun. drank more. end of the summer parties always rock. monday- silver cloud marina (the cool people) breakfast. hung out with the boys above & went to the diner then just hung out at dylan's house. took ryan back to college & here i am. school tomm. meaning summer is officially over. i can honestly say that this has been the best summer ever i'm gonna miss my ptdc family, "wild bunch" (marina), LTC family & a selected bunch so much! i'm not the least bit excited about school.. at all! this is so depressing. so long sweet summer <3 2 ♥ kiss mee.

& life seems to go by SO fast. [31 Aug 2004|02:24pm] [ mood | sore ] so it's official. my brother's in college, leaving me his empty room, a few photographs & the perks of his computer & phone-line! i miss him though, & he loves it there. the first day he went to a frat party & out with friends so he's the social one like always. i went with him to set up his dorm room & fell asleep on his bed. (well what do you expect i woke up at 5 a.m) so the door is wide open & the boy (adam) who lives across the hall came in to look around & noticed me on the bed & says "does she come as a room accessory? where's mine?" so adam's mom walks in followed by a few other people and i'm still sleeping through all of it. so yeah, "jackie do you realize you just slept through a bunch of people coming in here making noise?" "oops." so his college is really cool & he seems to like it. riley, kelly & i already planned our trip to go visit him! so this past weekend i went down the shore. none of my friends (besides ryan) were down there this weekend which i knew so i brought my book & just read, tanned & relaxed which was really cool. we went to the beach & the ocean was really nice. so yesterday alex came over. talked to steve on the phone for a long time & then i had to call him back so i wrote his number in an email so i'd remember. it just so happens i did the same thing for anthony (who was coming over) so i get the number, call steve back & ask for him and this guy is like steve? what? who? my brother steve? i'm like steve! so this continued for like one minute & finally i'm like "who is this!" ".. anthony!" "oh shit!" lmao, coincedently anthony has a brother named steve & thought i wanted to talk to him? lmao! anyway... anthony walked to my house & got totally lost for an hr 1/2. but we found him =) just chilled at my house for a little & ate junk and talked. laughed at alex singing randomly & asking weird questions (not suprising ;) so today i was sopposed to have track prac. but i got a call from maria in the morning asking if we do. my mom called & said it was raining where she was working & it looked like it was gonna pour here so i decided that i don't think we have it. so i didn't go. yay! plans for today guys? <3 ooh & i-m me if you wanna see LTC pics! ow oww! 2 ♥ kiss mee.

[27 Aug 2004|08:16pm] [ mood | nervous ] well well... so lately: malled it with the lovely laura! bought the ashlee simpson cd (lol, i had to do it), and a polo from hollister in which the very sweet, very cute worker picked out for me (oww laura) "excuse me sir, you have pretty hair". raced cars on the highway with some other guys- awesome! went over to her house later that night with the other girls- made smores! acted like-- us! lol. overslept for practice the next day. went to kalindi's house for an sgo meeting with mike, jenn & moo. met up with anthony yaz & went to his house. played foosball- i kick ass dude! so much fun.. moo & i get competitive ;] "get your game face on!" "these players have ugly hair!" went to wendy's & then back to the high school to meet up with anthony again. just hung out. went to jenny henry's house that night with joe, mike & family.. did the whole "remember when..." stories for hours & cried because she left for college this morning (sighh..) and mike leaves monday. joey leaves saturday. (double sigh) chris slept over last night, i went to practice this morning & hurt my hip (re-hurt i should say) from dance =[ came home, hung out with christopher & went out to lunch with joe & my grandma last night before joey goes to college. off to rutgers in the morning, then off to the shore? I'll spread my wings And I'll learn how to fly Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye I gotta take a risk Take chance Make a change And breakaway <3 8 ♥ kiss mee.

LTC! [23 Aug 2004|10:07pm] Leadership Camp: ("at least i've got that going for me... which is nice") lmao! jenn, moo, mike & I went to LTC camp for 4days & it was amazing! an awesome experience so if you ever get picked to go-do it! we were really nervous at first because we didn't know what to expect (i mean, hundreds of people you don't know- you guys are split up and bunking with strangers in some random place in the middle of no-where for 4days? what! but it was actually cool- better yet AWESOME. gorgeous lake, cool cabins, different enviorment / different people = totally cool. picture this: waking up at 7 a.m. to a cafeteria filled with kids for breakfast, everyone standing on their chairs singing to "happy songs" while rich cracks on people at the mic with his comedy. everyone is like family & you got used to that every morning. awesome classes with amazing ideas for our school (ohh you watch), meeting cool new people, crazy dancing/singing, silly songs, OLYMPICS! yeah sounds dorky right? it totally is! & it's so much fun! normal people doing the weirdest things.. at first it's a little uncomfortable but by the end you're acting like a maniac just like them! fireside singing, games- etc. we had a huge dinner/dance in which we had to get all dressed up for so the girls were all pretty in our dresses & the guys all in suits. the guys in our cabin gave us girls each flowers & this adorable poem & our girls gave them this huge heart with the picture of all of us girls in it & it says "you stole our hearts". really cute stuff. the dinner was nice, the dance was AWESOME! soo much fun! dancing all night- just so much fun. that was prob. my favorite part of the trip. songfest/talent show/skit night. jeez so much to tell. summed up it was amazing. i'll miss them all! yeahh cabin i! such an incredible experience <3 psst* my xc coach called my mom at work asking why his captain hasn't been at practice lately (camp) ugh. that means practice tomm. bright & early.. what fun. 4 ♥ kiss mee.

ptdc- until next summer... [13 Aug 2004|10:42pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | pieces of me- (aww girls!) ] hmm, so today was the last day of camp at PTDC- a sad time! it was also the camp carnival which was alot of fun. i kicked some major ass in the "big-blow-up-thing-race-course-thinga-magig". including joe's! ;D took lots of pictures & looked hawt with paytens sunglasses & hawaiian lei's for our game booth. cried with riley once it was about an hour until we left. every counselor sat in a circle of couch's & just talked and cried. we all love it there, it's crazy. said my goodbye's- even sat in the middle of the gym refusing to go for a while. got about $150 in tips today, plus the 30 from yesterday. not too shabby! as i was leaving i had my last shaving cream/vaseline fight with steve, max, & joe h in the equipment room. 2 showers later i still can't get the damn vaseline out of my hair! any suggestions? so tonight was also a huge party at tyler's house for the campies but i had to babysit. what the hell! so everyone's partying & i'm sitting here. (sigh) i'm gonna miss everyone so much! tommorrow is alberts wake =/ yeah. yesterday: awesome day at camp. watched spiderman in the camp movie theater, kelly, riley & i got thrown in the pool with our clothes on by max & steve. watched the boys (kenny, steve, joe, max & danny) mudsliding in the pouring rain! (pictures soon) hilarious! i can't believe it's over... "Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road. Time grabs you by the wrists and directs you where to go. So make the best of this test and don't ask why. It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time. It's something unpredictable, but in the end, that's right, I hope you have the time of your life." 3 ♥ kiss mee.

[11 Aug 2004|05:19pm] [ mood | angry ] well i don't even know where to start right now. since my last update my days have been pretty eventful- i can't remember most of it which is why i should start updating more but here's a short recap before the big stuff. recap: olympics at work (1st place again), alicia's party, sophie's party, major shopping, major partying down the shore last weekend- 3 parties on saturday, parade of lights, hung out with rach, allie & kyle, jamie hid rachels car, met christy- cool girl. etc. so there are two days left of camp. two. it sounds really sappy but i love camp! my job is amazing! i've met the most amazing people ever & i love them ALL! there's so much that i'll miss (until next summer of course). camp carnival is on friday- i don't know how to say goodbye. last night: girl-camp-sleepover round 2! crazy stuff right there. swimming in the lake, millions of pictures, crazy dances, endless stories with CRAZY PEOPLE. i love you girls! now... today. today was the worst day a person could possibly have. i'm seriously convinced that this day cannot get any worse. first, i hear that brian got into a car accident. luckily he wasn't hurt but his car was totalled & he was really shaken up. as if that weren't bad enough i find out that my brother was upset about something which an hour later turned into this huge thing at work & i had to go searching for him with steve because 'something happened to one of my friends'. that something was the end of a persons life. after a long drive & hours of crying i finally went back to camp where everyone else found out & was crying- it was just horrible. hugeee thanks to steve for being there for me :big hugs: never ever take advantage of life. take the time you have to live it up (the right way). you never know when it'll be cut short. </3 you'll be truly missed. r.i.p 4 ♥ kiss mee.

"would you rather me say oh my yayo?" [01 Aug 2004|08:37pm] [ mood | silly ] wednesday (i think): went to work & then hung out with samir & matt. went driving around & to DD. stupid lady working there, ghetto-ass dunkin donuts. she was new (obviously) lols samir. thursday: work again.. cafe eclectic with steph, sophie, michelle, kelly & emily. yummy caramel apple pie. mmm.. friday: work yet again, michelle came home with me & came down the shore for the weekend. went to the diner, hung out with kel & jamie saturday: went out on jamies boat, tanned & went swimming in the bay. went in the pool at the marina with kel, tyler, jamie & michelle. crazy chicken fights & such. "hooldd meh" :drowns: "no holddd meh". silly jamie! saw a kid playing guitar so we went over to him, it was zack who was visiting. cool kid. he's in a band called 2am which is sweet. also met mike (the canadian) stoner! ;] and alex. awesome kids. hung out with them for awhile.. went walking around & out to ice cream. we lost michelle & tyler when the wandered off for 3 hours. we had a search team (also known as the marina) looking for them forever! so funny. made fun of mike the canadian stoner & his accent. "what is this aboot! about? aboot! hoose?" awwe lol. in conclusion- tyler is a jack-ass. the end. sunday: down pour! it was raining like crazy.. ran around a little in the rain. packed up & said bye to everyone. got in another fight with tyler (lmao) dork. now here i am, chris just came to visit me & i'm eating ice-cream. so who wants to chill tonight! & i love kelsey! well duh <3 "Defense is paper thin just, one touch and i'd be in Too deep now to ever swim against the current, so let me slip away." 13 ♥ kiss mee.

& she will be loved.. [25 Jul 2004|05:32pm] [ mood | giggly ] sorry for the delayed update- last friday night- sophie had a party. funny drunk people & many laughs. "courtney pee'd in front of me!" "jackie we've really never had a chance to bond" lol. awesome night. sat- woke up at 6 am (yes six o'clock = too early) to go down the shore. went out on jamie's boat & went to the beach. the waves were great. went swimming at the marina after & then went to the movies that night in TR with rachel, jamie, tyler & allie to see the terminal. loong movie! sunday- went home from the shore early because of the rain & went to holstens with michelle, melanie, allison, andrew & joe. met up with chris after & went back to the matias house to play games in pj's! rainy day games! lols.. so much fun. michelle & i kicked some major ass. went to wendy's & then went home monday: work & went to TGI Fridays with friends, went to sophie's & had some fun on the trampoline with riley, kelly, & danny (who fell off 5 times) lol! then slept over rileys. this friday: talent show at work. really funny! poor paul broke his ankle after work.. in the pouring rain! i felt so horrible because he was sitting in puddles in so much pain & the ambulance took 1/2 hr to get there. feel better darling! ♥ sat: went to the mall & spent $80 on a pair of ripped a&f jeans (which is prob. one of my paychecks lol!) but they were cute! ran into like everyone from work! went to the movies to see a cinderella story with alex- it was cute. "i don't mind spending everyday on your corner in the pouring rain" ♥♥ 2 ♥ kiss mee.

[14 Jul 2004|10:58pm] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | pieces of me- ashlee simpson ] today was so much fun. it was the olympics at the camp i work at. everyone gets really into it, it's just awesome. we all wore our team color which happened to be green, spray painted our hair, face paint, wrote egypt (our team) all over us- you know. dancing around, weird cheers- we just rocked. we totally kicked ass! the counselors played some hardcore soccer. made a pyramid for egypt (yeah, sophie!) and our team came in 1st and won medals. what what ♥ 2 ♥ kiss mee.

"excuse me could you please tell me what the fresh fruit bowl is" [12 Jul 2004|10:01pm] [ mood | bouncy ] [ music | it's my life ] well well well.. friday: went home from work sick. angela came from montville to see me! we chilled, went to taco bell.. and caught up on stuff since i haven't hung out with her since when? forevahh! way too long! anyways, this weekend i brought friends down the shore to my boat from friday to sunday. fuuun! it started with the car ride. an unexpected and unnamed being called angelas cell- so what do we do? have fun of course- especially since he was drunk. funny ass conversation. "hey sweet cheeks, where do you work?" samir & ang were dying. then later that night when we got there we met up with kelsey & ryan! we hung out on my boat for awhile & then went to ryan's yaught. yay! fun night. saturday just chilled by the pool, went swimming- etc. then ryan took us up to seaside that night. ran into friends, hung out with tyler & brandon and then went back to ryans boat & later to the diner at like 1 a.m. kelsey: excuse me, what's the fresh fruit bowl? waitress: it's fresh fruit. in a bowl. ( hysterical laughing ) a-duh. but she meant what kind of fruit. poor kel. ♥♥ sunday went out on my boat & went to the beach. fun fun. i fell asleep in the sand. on my stomach. woke up not knowing where i was. priceless. good weekend. so today was a good/funny day at work. & i fell asleep as soon as i got home. woke up thinking it was morning so i took a shower & got ready for work. then i went to go wake my brother up (he was napping). i was like "joey, we're late for work! it's 7:21!" he was so confused and was like no. what are you TALKING about! and i was so confused and finally realized what i had done & cracked up. i went downstairs & my mom was cooking dinner. that was... wow. go ahead laugh, i did. ;) 6 ♥ kiss mee.

beautiful disaster. [08 Jul 2004|08:30pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | anthem of our dying day - story of the year ] so- my birthday was two days ago. went to work, the counslers made all the campers sing to me when i got back from taking one girl to the bathroom. talked to riley when steve picks me up & tries(successfully) to throw me in the pool, him coming in also. WITH clothes on. brr. but he brought me an extra shirt so it was fine. a lady showed up at my door with a huge arrangement of flowers & a balloon that said happy sweet 16, from samir. pretty pretty! went out to eat with a few people- got awesome presents! hung out with sam- all was well until.. i got into a huge fight with him that night over absolutely nothing. ridiculous. i cried hysterically.. on my birthday. it wasn't fun- at all. yeah. on a happier note- - went shopping last night at hollister & got cute stuff. woo! - funny day at work today. & my campers are adorable <3 - HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOO! - tommorrow, party for the weekend down the shore! - went to moo's party. fun stuff <3 7 ♥ kiss mee.

[05 Jul 2004|09:18pm] [ mood | blah ] so this weekend i went down the shore to my boat. hung out with kelsey alot which made me smile. 4th of july we tied our boats together in the bay to watch the fireworks. partied it up! samir called me during the fireworks, aww- so sweet! lol. hung out with ryan a little. mom: ryan how old are you now? ryan: i'm old now.. 20. rachel (yells): ryan is this your spongebob phone? lmao. gotta love him. tommorrow is my 16th birthday! go me! get ready to party next weekend! ( "tell ) 10 ♥ kiss mee.

[30 Jun 2004|05:21pm] [ mood | exhausted ] today was hectic. got home from work about 1/2 hour ago- hard day. other than today, work has been really good actually. i like it. so last night i went to caroline's house (i work with her). i went with joe, she was having a bunch of people over. we left around 10:00 and she lives somewhere near north caldwell. amazing house. private driveway that spirals, a bowling alley in her garage, an amazing built in pool with a jacuzzi, gazebo, huge house in which me & riley got lost (lol). just chilled. called steve to give directions but he was 'not all there' hahah so he didn't know where he was. so tonight i'm sleeping because i'm exhausted. don't think i'm gonna go out but if you have plans call me & i might change my mind. today there were 2bloody noses, a million people crying, dodgeball victims, hahah! pure chaos. went to forte with caroline, joe & max for lunch then went to gelotti. i def. remember going there with my friend ann from another camp years ago. it was de ja vu. tommorrow work & then performing hip-hop at st. mary's church at 5:00. go watch! then off to dinner with some work people. <33 14 ♥ kiss mee.

this song rocks. that is all. [28 Jun 2004|08:35pm] [ mood | mellow ] see you're not what i expected but you're the only one who knows how to handle me. & you're such a great kisser... i know you would agree. You're the only one who drives me kicking &screaming You're the only one who knows exactly what i need. i hope you can forgive me for that time when i put my hand between your legs & said it was small. (it's really not at all) i guess there's just a part of me that likes to bring you down just to keep you around.... cause the day you realize how amazing you are you're gonna leave me. You're the only one who holds my hair back when i'm drunk&sick You're the only one who know exactly what i mean You're the only one who drives me kicking &screaming You're the only one who knows exactly what i need. i saw you with your hands above your head spinning around trying not to look down but you did. & you fell hard. on the ground. 10 ♥ kiss mee.

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